So this last week I didn’t have any chance to write because my son is teething. It’s not getting any better, it’s the same. He’s cranky, in pain, and clinging onto me all day every day. Not an optimum situation for someone who needs time to be creative. I guess when other mothers say that things will only get better when his teeth cut through is right. The problem is they never prepare you for this.
Actually, mothers don’t prepare you for anything!!! I like to think of myself as someone who can tolerate pain so I was mentally prepared to face labor pains. I had my birthing plan in place and knew that birthing was a part of nature and mothers, for decades, have been doing it naturally.
Come March 2nd, I’m sitting in my pajamas working on salaries when my water broke. Splash. LITERALLY splash! My husband was away on vacation, my mom was cooking lunch, and I just had to finish the salaries because no-one else can do them. I sat down for a few minutes just to save the file and handed it over to my sister. I was then admitted to the hospital when I still remained smiling, excited, and under control.
The pain was fairly bearable in the beginning. It was an interesting experience until things started getting serious. The nurse was nice but she didn’t know what I was going through. She might have given birth previously but I was the one in labor. She sees this everyday, this is her job. But for me it was just OH MY GOD!!
Being in pain, I wanted to talk to the fairly nice nurse and ask her when this will be over. She said soon and couldn’t really answer. Come on, who can answer this question? So then I asked her is this pain normal? She said, this is moderate pain and giggled.
If this is moderate pain, what is real pain?
Well, It got worse… much worse… really quickly…
I never thought I would but I gave in the the epidural and was still screaming.
Word of advice: TAKE ALL DRUGS AVAILABLE TO EASE YOUR PAIN!!! You don’t need to torture yourself, you don’t hate yourself, do you?
So hours (which seemed like months later), I gave birth to my baby. I was so happy and relieved the pain stopped. They say the body gets filled with happiness (hormones and such, I’ve never been into biology much) but I think the body was just in shock. It really is a miracle you’re alive!
Later on, I’m siting on the hospital bed and my aunt walks in and asks, “how was labor? Is it what you expected?” It took ALL my willpower not to say something rude, she was being satirical and she loved it. It was an inside joke but you know what? I wasn’t laughing.
A year and a bit later, I understand why mothers don’t tell expectant mothers the truth: if anyone knew the extent of the pain they would never consider having a baby. Plus, I just LOVE walking in to hospital rooms and ask “how was labor? Is it what you expected? HAHAHA join the club.
Today’s (and everyday) specials: pain, lack of time, and no energy. Oh, and an amazing miracle you know is worth it.
I love you, my boy. Hope you feel better.