تنسى بأن لي قلب
وتخبرني بأن الحياة معي
جحيم
تنسى بأن لي مشاعر
وتخبرني بأني اوصلتك
للجنون
وتنسى بأن لي روح
وتتمنى أن
نفترق
كيف لك أن تنسى؟
وكيف لي أن اسامح؟
كيف أقسو على نفسي
وقلبي
وروحي؟
فإن لم انتبه لنفسي
فمن لنفسي؟
وإن لم انتبه لقلبي
فمن لقلبي؟
وإن لم انتبه لروحي
فمن لروحي؟
فها هي نفسي تذبل
وقلبي يبكي
وروحي تموت
وأنت… تنسى
No longer so hard, no longer so blind
I stare in the mirror at a face that’s not mine
No longer so harsh, no longer so cruel
The mask I had on was a useful tool.
Cannot keep a straight look on my face anymore
The skin disappearing, revealing the core
A sigh I take and try to put things back
Yet things won’t come if the will I lack
Emotions bubbling at my surface at last
Feathers I use to cover them fast
Cannot understand why I took away
The ice that covered my emotions today.
I want to set my emotions all free
Not doing so really pains me, you see
Yet it is better off to do what I’m told
And turn my eyes from warm to cold
My inner self defies me, I am not to blame
Things will come back, they will be the same
An emotionless mask I will put on again
Yet I still get wet when the clouds all rain.
Failing
even after getting what I want
still failing
still feeling the tears run down my cheek
still hearing promises that make me weak
failing to fulfill what I want the most
failing and turning into a ghost
failing to find happiness in it all
failing to run away from this brawl
failing to be who I really am
and being at peace with where I stand
still failing.
-From Dreams of a Blue Moon
كلما تتحدث
واختار ان اسكت
تظهر كلماتي على شكل شعر ابيض
يجتاح رأسي
وها انا اليوم
احتاج لصباغته مرتين كل شهر
ولا زلتَ تبدو في العشرين
Feelings were once a part of my life
and loads of feelings I had
dreams of being a mother and a wife
soon became my past.
I used to feel others’ pain
and tears would fall from my eyes
but then I thought I have no gain
so I stopped all of my cries.
Then soon enough I found out
that happiness isn’t forever
so I threw away happiness too
and hoped it would come never.
Sadly, though, all feelings left
and I was in the dark
not feeling pain nor happiness
no excitement, not a spark.
Smiles would crack my lips at times
and tears would run down my face
yet deep inside I surely know
in my heart, feelings have no place.
(From Dreams of A Blue Moon by Bedoor Khalaf)
Darkness along with broken pride
as the glass of water breaks
seeing the wrong, not seeing the right
as bones in their graves shake.
Chaos around yet not a way
to change the angel’s mind
for the person that once has been a saint
will be a traitor to all mankind.
Will not care less to what others feel
since everyone has done him wrong
will cause harsh pain and torture on
those with a heart that longs.
Nowadays love is a sin
and only sinners love
roses turn into weeds
crows created from doves.
Pain and violence the only words
known to the human race
painted masks and hypocrites
stained on people’s face.
Angels turn to demons as
they realize life is unfair
but what stunned them most is the fact
that love no longer cares.
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لا تأتيني، سيدي، بعقلك
ولا تكلمني بعنجهية منطقك
فلا أتحدث لغتك الصعبة
لغتي يفهمها الجميع:
عد بذاكرتك الى الماضي
تذكّر حبك والحنين
أتذكر عندما كنا نلعب
وآمالنا لا يمسها أنين؟
أتذكر عندما نجلس معا
نحلم ونبني احلام السنين؟
ماذا حدث لك؟ اخبرني!
أين ذهب الولد الوسيم؟
أين ذهبت أحلامك
أصبحتَ موسوعة (س) و(ج)
بتّ رجلا فظا تعيسا
تركت جنات ونعيم
تحدثني بغرور كأنما
العلم يوجد فقط في الصين!
قيس لم يتخرج من معهد
ولا ليلى درست ببرلين
ايا رجلا مهما محترما
أفق من سَكَر المثقفين
أفق قلبك الميت فلا
يسوى الانسان بلا معين
حبيب يموت في هواك
ولا كتب مصفوفة بالطين
حبيب يسهر على راحتك
ولا اقلام ترعد الجبين
كلماتك اجعلها رقيقة
تصل الى اذان العاشقين
اكتب شعرا، اكتب نثرا
أَخرج ما بجوفك الحزين
فرسالة حب احيانا
هدية من رب العالمين
Let me hold you, my boy
Let me hold you tight
Let me hold you all day
Let me hold you all night.
Let me hold you before
You go running around
Before you start walking
And your feet touch the ground.
Let me hold you before
You want to go play
For I will miss you so much
When you’re far away.
I held you in my womb
You were next to my heart
Giving birth to you
Was being torn apart.
When I hold you close
My heart you will hear
I want you in my arms
Forever, my dear.
Let me hold you close
Let me hold you tight
You are the only thing I did
That I know was right.
Bedoor Bluemoon 